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Hiding Out: A Memoir of Drugs, Deception, and Double Lives
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“[Hiding Out] brims with drunkenness, sexuality and urgency...a “can’t-put-down” read."  — Washington Post

Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen’s audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father—a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of thirteen children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed high school basketball prodigy, she harbored a painful secret: she liked girls. When Tina was eighteen her father discovered the truth about her sexuality. Instead of dragging her to the family priest and lecturing her with tearful sermons about sin and damnation, her father shocked her with his honest response. He, too, was gay.

The secret they shared about their sexuality brought father and daughter closer, and the two became trusted confidants and partners in a relationship that eventually spiraled out of control. Tina and Sir John spent nights dancing in gay clubs together, experimenting with drugs, and casual sex—all while keeping the rest of their family in the dark.

Outside of their wild clandestine escapades, Sir John made Tina his heir apparent at the travel agency. Drawn deeper into the business, Tina soon became suspicious of her father’s frequent business trips, his multiple passports and cache of documents, and the briefcases full of cash that mysteriously appeared and quickly vanished. Digging deeper, she uncovered a disturbing facet beyond the stunning double-life of the father she thought she knew.

A riveting and cinematic true tale stranger and twistier than fiction, Hiding Out is an astonishing story of self-discovery, family, secrets, and the power of the truth to set us free.

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“[Hiding Out] brims with drunkenness, sexuality and urgency...a “can’t-put-down” read."  — Washington Post

Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen’s audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father—a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of thirteen children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed high school basketball prodigy, she harbored a painful secret: she liked girls. When Tina was eighteen her father discovered the truth about her sexuality. Instead of dragging her to the family priest and lecturing her with tearful sermons about sin and damnation, her father shocked her with his honest response. He, too, was gay.

The secret they shared about their sexuality brought father and daughter closer, and the two became trusted confidants and partners in a relationship that eventually spiraled out of control. Tina and Sir John spent nights dancing in gay clubs together, experimenting with drugs, and casual sex—all while keeping the rest of their family in the dark.

Outside of their wild clandestine escapades, Sir John made Tina his heir apparent at the travel agency. Drawn deeper into the business, Tina soon became suspicious of her father’s frequent business trips, his multiple passports and cache of documents, and the briefcases full of cash that mysteriously appeared and quickly vanished. Digging deeper, she uncovered a disturbing facet beyond the stunning double-life of the father she thought she knew.

A riveting and cinematic true tale stranger and twistier than fiction, Hiding Out is an astonishing story of self-discovery, family, secrets, and the power of the truth to set us free.

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        "I can fully recommend it, I read it cover to cover, the writing was excellent and was completely engrossed; the story is incredibly compelling." — Megyn Kelly, Megyn Kelly TODAY

        "I love this book—brave, brutal truths." — Rosie O'Donnell

        "[Hiding Out] brims with drunkenness, sexuality and urgency...She showcases excellent writing skills, packaging grit and grime into glistening prose. Her twisted mystery, family woes of the nastiest kind and multilayered love stories spin together to form a "can't-put-down" read in Hiding Out."
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        "[Tina Alexis Allen] doesn't hold back in her memoir Hiding Out." — Teen Vogue

        "Tina Alexis Allen was tired of living in the shadows...She is hoping [Hiding Out] will encourage others to come forward and speak out against being abused." — FoxNews.com

        "Scandalous, resonant, and refreshingly free of self-justification, Hiding Out is a compelling tale of sin and service, concealment and disclosure, hedonism and righteousness...an in-the-moment dose of the exhilarating tragedy of being alive." — Mark Riebling, author of Church of Spies

        "Allen's life — once dominated by cruelty and abuse — takes a deep dive into decadence, fueled by cocaine, champagne and Sir John's never-ending supply of mysterious money. Hiding Out is about a lot of lies, and some are the ones we tell ourselves." — New York Daily News

        "Brutally honest and shamelessly truthful." — Fr. Richard Rohr, author of Falling Upward

        "Hiding Out is a whiplash read for its drama and intrigue, but it's also an openhearted exploration of history, hypocrisy, and the fact that we may never know the answers to the questions that have shaped our lives." — Shondaland.com

        "This is not a book for the faint of heart. Tina scrubs her soul clean within its pages, uncovering and exposing the web of lies her young adulthood had become...[she] succeeds on all levels with this memoir you definitely will not forget." — Talk Nerdy With Us

        "A writer candidly confronts her personal truth in her quest for transformation, transcendence, and redemption." — Kirkus Reviews

        "Deeply felt" — Booklist

        "Perhaps it's Allen's background as an actress and playwright that gives Hiding Out, at turns jaw-dropping and spellbinding, its dramatic tension and spot-on dialogue. Her memoir is as compulsive to read as it is heartbreaking. And that's the truth." — Washington Independent Review of Books

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        Raised a devout Catholic in a family of 13 dominated by a strict, British-born father, GLAAD Award-nominated actress/playwright Allen led a wild-hare adolescence and was terrified when her father learned that she liked girls. Then he confessed that he, too, was gay, and they joined in a series of increasingly outre escapades until she discovered his multiple passports and secret stash of cash, revealing that he had a double life beyond what even she knew. With a 100,000-copy first printing.

        Copyright 2017 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

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        An actress and producer chronicles the process of how she turned overcoming childhood trauma into a career.As the youngest of 13 children of a seemingly devout Catholic family, Allen harbored many secrets from members of her family and eventually shared a crucial one with her father. He had been knighted by the pope, insisted on being called "Sir John," and had a few secrets of his own. The one that bonded father and daughter was their shared homosexuality, which he recognized in her, confessed to her, and said they should never reveal to anyone else in the family. Long after she discovered that it was her secrets that were keeping her sick, she devoted her stage career to a one-woman show in which she played her father. "I took on his shame, his guilt, his poor decisions, his charm and his goodness in front of a live audience," she writes. "Daughter into father, transformed. I was him. I wasn't acting him. I really felt I became him." This memoir is the next step in that creative process, as she reveals the difficult secrets that have plagued her: how two of her older brothers began sexually abusing her when she was 9; how her first lover was her middle school teacher; how she continued with her attraction to older women as a scholarship college basketball player, when her main lover was her softball coach; how she and her father went to gay bars together and bonded over their secret; how her father told her, "this is not information that the world needs to know. But it's important that someone knows." The author shares all this after settling into a monogamous relationship that has lasted some 25 years and quitting the drinking that was such a fixture of her father's life and her relationship with him. Ultimately, it's not the story of who she is but of who she was.A writer candidly confronts her personal truth in her quest for transformation, transcendence, and redemption.

        COPYRIGHT(2018) Kirkus Reviews, ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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Actress and playwright Tina Alexis Allen’s audacious memoir unravels her privileged suburban Catholic upbringing that was shaped by her formidable father—a man whose strict religious devotion and dedication to his large family hid his true nature and a life defined by deep secrets and dangerous lies.

The youngest of thirteen children in a devout Catholic family, Tina Alexis Allen grew up in 1980s suburban Maryland in a house ruled by her stern father, Sir John, an imposing, British-born authoritarian who had been knighted by the Pope. Sir John supported his large family running a successful travel agency that specialized in religious tours to the Holy Land and the Vatican for pious Catholics.

But his daughter, Tina, was no sweet and innocent Catholic girl. A smart-mouthed...

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